Now here's another line to the song.
"We gotta stop looking at the hands on the time we've been given."
I've done nothing but taking what time I have left on this earth this past few days. I have a dream like everyone else, but the difference between me and everyone else is that some of them are actually doing something to get there while I just laze around my room with my laptop playing MapleStory. Yes. My dream may seem impossible to some, and some people might laugh at me for having such a dream, but from what I've been doing this past few days, they deserve to laugh at me. I don't deserve to fight back. I want to change all that. I want things to go back to it was. I want to be able to fight back and I want them to not be deserving of their laughing at my dream. My dream requires a lot from me - from me alone. It'd be wise for me to start now or else my worse nightmare might just come true - dying before doing everything that I wanted.
My parents, my friends... Well, maybe not my friends, but my parents. I've not been a really good offspring lately. Fact I've been an awful offspring all my life. How can I blame them for it? I really don't get myself. I hate that part of myself\. Fact I hate myself as a whole. Yes. I did just say that. How can I get others and like others when I don't even like or get myself? I've been too full of myself thinking that everything revolves around me. People should be scared of me. People should respect me. Well, why would people even respect me when I don't even give a fly's shit about whether they die or live? I really have to think about my life. I'm just 15 now. I know. But I'm not like most people. I've been taught the things we should learn sometime in our life which will turn our whole life around and make us look at the world in a whole different perspective. Therefore, I should be able by now to be a better person. Why am I still having problems with it? God damn it. I hate it.
Well, while I'm working my problems out, enjoy this video:
Sorry for the informality of this post. In any case, I hope you guys don't do the same mistakes I did or am doing right now.
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problem solved yet? -ves
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